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Thoughts of suicide...
Good evening all:
I have been having a very difficult time in my life the last three months. Now don't get me wrong, I’m not suicidal, and to be frank probably never will be ( at least one hopes not ). I will however admit to having suicidal thoughts. Although I know I would never give in to my contemplations of suicide I am willing to admit at the harder times of my life I have definitely thought about the concept. By this I don't mean what it would be like to bleed myself out or anything dramatic, but simple the realization of what the benefits verses the cons of taking ones life. Does the fact I've thought about this scare me... frankly yes it does. As I said before this is in NO way a rationality of committing suicide due to other peoples responses, its more just a question of curiosity.
I am asking how many people in this community have honestly at one point in their life questioned the concept of suicide... I don't mean planned it out, found reason, rationalized it, or anything that would lead to the actual act. I am only asking how many people here have found themselves asking "God would life be easier if I just didn’t need to face it?".
I know I have asked this question myself several times without ever once actually feeling inclined to act apon it. My question is how many people have found themselves asking this question, whether or not they are truly interested in taking action.
I ask because lately in life I find myself asking this more often which has me frightened. Every time I ask it, it always results in the same answer... “God that could never happen, Life is fixable, no conflict is worth such a permanent solution." yet with enough time and the right situation I find the question popping up again. I really question if I will stop seeing this as a fictional question and start thinking of it as a solution.
I know this is a dark subject, one that frankly I don't want to bring up. But frankly I am curious how many people have casually had this concept come up in their mind. Is this something that is common or should I seriously be distressed about this.
I really appreciate any replies on this subject as it's something that has been bothering me for a long period of time. I apologize to all who find this type of thread distasteful or unnerving.
Good evening all:
I have been having a very difficult time in my life the last three months. Now don't get me wrong, I’m not suicidal, and to be frank probably never will be ( at least one hopes not ). I will however admit to having suicidal thoughts. Although I know I would never give in to my contemplations of suicide I am willing to admit at the harder times of my life I have definitely thought about the concept. By this I don't mean what it would be like to bleed myself out or anything dramatic, but simple the realization of what the benefits verses the cons of taking ones life. Does the fact I've thought about this scare me... frankly yes it does. As I said before this is in NO way a rationality of committing suicide due to other peoples responses, its more just a question of curiosity.
I am asking how many people in this community have honestly at one point in their life questioned the concept of suicide... I don't mean planned it out, found reason, rationalized it, or anything that would lead to the actual act. I am only asking how many people here have found themselves asking "God would life be easier if I just didn’t need to face it?".
I know I have asked this question myself several times without ever once actually feeling inclined to act apon it. My question is how many people have found themselves asking this question, whether or not they are truly interested in taking action.
I ask because lately in life I find myself asking this more often which has me frightened. Every time I ask it, it always results in the same answer... “God that could never happen, Life is fixable, no conflict is worth such a permanent solution." yet with enough time and the right situation I find the question popping up again. I really question if I will stop seeing this as a fictional question and start thinking of it as a solution.
I know this is a dark subject, one that frankly I don't want to bring up. But frankly I am curious how many people have casually had this concept come up in their mind. Is this something that is common or should I seriously be distressed about this.
I really appreciate any replies on this subject as it's something that has been bothering me for a long period of time. I apologize to all who find this type of thread distasteful or unnerving.