[pity party]
Maybe I was wrong. I do feel like bitching about how crap the past 24 hours have been. Why? To stall from going home I think. Pardon ahead of time, Im not usually one for emotional rants and too much angst.
I had to leave my bofriend as my time to visit in his county without a working visa was up. And leave his lush beautiful english countryside for the icky arid Arizona desert. I was picked up from the airport by my neighbor as my family is all in Mexico for the week having fun at a beach.
The air conditioner at home is broken and I stayed the night at said neighbors house..as it somehow gets hotter inside than outside with no a/c running. Going over there soon though, unpacked stuff and snuggle with my pets.
News I received from neighbor that mother hasnt told me:
-My dog Sierra has epilepsy. She now has to take pills to stop severe seizures. Been going on for nearly two months now. She really isnt mine persay, shes more my younger brothers. But I love her all the same and I wish I had been here to help.
-My beloved cat Kechara was killed by cyotes. Shes been dead for three months and my mother couldnt bear to tell me this while I was in England. In a household with three cats and three dogs Kechara was undisputablely mine and no one elses. There was a wash a block or so away that many a desert bunnies lived at. It was torn down to make way for some housing constuction instead of a park they've been promising for the past three years. And now cats in our neighborhood are at a greater risk of being preyed upon. (it was an accepted risk before, but more so now.)
I dont know. I expected depression from having to leave England. I miss my Thomas very much. But the last two added on top of it...I just want to curl up somewhere and not exist for a while.
[/pity party]
Maybe I was wrong. I do feel like bitching about how crap the past 24 hours have been. Why? To stall from going home I think. Pardon ahead of time, Im not usually one for emotional rants and too much angst.
I had to leave my bofriend as my time to visit in his county without a working visa was up. And leave his lush beautiful english countryside for the icky arid Arizona desert. I was picked up from the airport by my neighbor as my family is all in Mexico for the week having fun at a beach.
The air conditioner at home is broken and I stayed the night at said neighbors house..as it somehow gets hotter inside than outside with no a/c running. Going over there soon though, unpacked stuff and snuggle with my pets.
News I received from neighbor that mother hasnt told me:
-My dog Sierra has epilepsy. She now has to take pills to stop severe seizures. Been going on for nearly two months now. She really isnt mine persay, shes more my younger brothers. But I love her all the same and I wish I had been here to help.
-My beloved cat Kechara was killed by cyotes. Shes been dead for three months and my mother couldnt bear to tell me this while I was in England. In a household with three cats and three dogs Kechara was undisputablely mine and no one elses. There was a wash a block or so away that many a desert bunnies lived at. It was torn down to make way for some housing constuction instead of a park they've been promising for the past three years. And now cats in our neighborhood are at a greater risk of being preyed upon. (it was an accepted risk before, but more so now.)
I dont know. I expected depression from having to leave England. I miss my Thomas very much. But the last two added on top of it...I just want to curl up somewhere and not exist for a while.
[/pity party]
*hugs Rhexis and offers shoulder to lean on* 
Maybe it would make you feel some what better talking about a place you really liked...